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Bro hasn't called since he landed ths morning. He's so awful when it comes to contact and it really annoys me. It doesn't take a minute to just send a text and say he's ok.

Found out today that Melissa Tkautz, one of my soap icons from her days in E Street, is about to release some new music in Aus. Very excited. Can't wait to get it.

I don't know what I'm doing this week. Everyone will be out and at work so I'll be here on my own during the day. Once again I'll be behind on Neighbours cos Bro wants me to wait for him!!

Made some PP icons today just a few especially for damaged_hearts and any other PP fans.

( Jack & Beth are love! )

For the first time in ages, like over 8 months me and my bro have caught up with UK Neighbours.
We can watch the episode 'live' tonight.

WOO!

We'll be behind again next week when he goes away but...yay!

Ha Ha!!! It's time to take your revenge!!!

Beat The Crazy Frog!

The family PC hasn't had any internet for a couple of weeks. The wireless card broke. So I got a new one and have only just got round to installing it because of my holiday.

It's so not happening and after calling the helpine 3 times they have just told me I can't call them anymore!! It's company policy that after three calls, to stop the customer from spending too much money they have to call me back! All well and good but it takes up to 48 hours!!

I swear it better not take that long. I have so much to do and don't like the thought of using the net when it's not secure.

Have ticked a few things of the 'to do' list. Also called my agent today and cut all ties. Was horrible. He said he was really upset as he's just been given the new series of Bad Girls and wanted me to be in it again. I hate taking this massive gamble even though I know I have to. It's bloody scary. Still, he managed to slip in a last minute pervy comment before he put down the phone. Ick.

Going through my Shakespeare piece and it struck me that Izzy Hoyland has simular tendancies to Anne Boleyn! Not in their circumstances but in the way they deal with them. The whole actress thing - blowing everything into a drama and almost saying what people want to hear in some cases! It's quite amusing. It's given me some scope for how to play it all anyway!!

What is it about fans in hot weather that make you act like a popstar?
Or is that just me. When they're blowing and your hair goes all popstarish like in the music videos!!

I love that!

I so should be in bed. Have been so good sticking to my detox diet and going to bed early but tonight I just can't force myself to go.

Audition stuff is coming on well I think. I'm not as stressed about it but I still have moments when I get a bit scared and realise what I'm doing it pretty damn big! But I think it's sinking in. I'm feeling the characters a bit more - even the Shakespeare ones. I keep asking myself what I'll do if I don't get it and I can't think about it. It's the first time I've gone for something and not getting it has just not been an option for me. But I'm trying not to think about it.

Bro is away performing in an Opera - bless him. It's wierd not having him around. He's not back until another 2 weeks.

Anyway - I have to go back to being a pop star now.

So I dragged myself to the pub last night even though I was told G wouldn't be there. He was catching up with his family. It was a normal night at our local, was telling everyone about work and the xmas special etc when the door opened and G entered.......with his new girlfriend!

OMFG - did I fall of the chair at that point? I do not know but I had to kick myself into actress mode to stop my true feelings from being shown! None of us knew - G's idea of a surprise. I have no more words!! She's Danish, blonde, I don't even know her name - I swear I floated somewhere else when they entered!

So yeah - looks like that's kind of over! He has a new life now and it seems like he's really happy in his new home etc. I don't see him coming home anytime soon.

It's just odd - things that have been important in my life over the past few years seem to be coming to an end.

The girls at BG said they'd be reading self help books this weekend to help me out tomorrow!! Looks like I'll be needing that.

A sum up of today.......because I can't sleep and I need to say things.

( Kylie )